Insomnia.. In-so-mania

I am so tired today..working 10 hrs..what a pain...didn't sleep well last night. Insomnia-sleeplessness. Or In-so-mania..I am in so many manias. Dwelling in it., so many things going around din't get any chance to separate them and get mania for each of them. Well, it obvious when u see so many of them..
It was nasty weekend, .dint do anything. Except work..
Missing my parents. Tomorrow is the graduation day.. big day. Remembering 30 months in United states. It started in Jan 2008. After so many trouble finally got in. I never got anything in first chance, I had to push harder and get it done in second chance. Same things happened in my VISA. Immigration officer in Mumbai throw so many questions to me. I couldn’t answer them in obvious way. Tried to give genuine answers. I concluded the interview as VISA ON HOLD. What a answer. The most difficult thing in the world is to wait for something. I was waiting for VISA for almost 1 month. Suffering, Suffering to me and family. Was such a bad era in my life. I will never forget it anytime in my life. It changed al the equations for me. Riddled stuff, Finally got Visa on 26th Jan. Republic day of India. Understood the exact meaning of Republic day for first time in lifetime. Left with 1 day to pack up. Didn’t go as I was expected. Friends were singing “Behti Hawa sa” songs for me.. Kaha chala gaya. Thought of gone in 60 seconds movie. It was gone in 2 days.. everything happened in 2 days. Shopping,, VISA, Air Ticket, everything in 1 day.. and finally continental airline announced “Passenger boarding to flight to Newark are requested to board”. First time in the Air. I was so tired didn’t experience the thrill of air travel. I slept immediately while take off. Woke up after 3-4 hrs and saw everything different. This was the first time I missed my country and place. “3 hours ke baad aisa haal tha to 3 saal baad kaisa hoga” I still remember those days when I always got the foreign feeling ( xenophobic).
After 2 and half years I think I still have that feeling but intensity is reduced. Its that AMERICAN FEELING.. Tomorrow I will be completing my masters. Reason of being in USA. Feeling happy that I did it. So many things learned in these years. These things wouldn’t appear in any book. Lifetime experiences.. Its gr8 to have such experiences. From Verizon process executive to a Verizon customer, bachelors to masters, India to USA, Maharashtra to New Jersey and finally DAHITULE TO PATEL (so called unwritten law of NJ). All this happened in last 2 years. Last part is hypothetical. I am still DAHITULE. “Missing something ?” …Nupe I believe. Except parents and frnds in India.
Thank you for reading…
GOD BLESS YOU…
“Words are the best pencil, it portrays your soul”.

Up in the Air

"UP IN THE AIR" nice movie well executed by George Clooney. Last week it was bright sunny in here. I was talking to a girl about the beach environment. It was quite long discussion about how the sunlight is good and harmful to you and your body. It was a heated conversation as we were talking about heat. After all the discussion when she was going I threw a deadly weapon from my arsenal "ENJOY SUN OF BEACH". Oh My God.....It sounded like XXXXXXXXX.. She glared at me as if the cat will eat me. It wasn't intentional. It just came out of my mind. And I threw it away. But later on I explained how it is. She was laughing. This is just compilations of words. which when delivered gives some feeling of happiness. I felt happy for those compilations.. It wasn't a great joke but the timing was good..

Another incident was in Up in the Air when the air hostess girl ask "Do you need can sir?..wow..when you say in expedition it sound like do you need cancer?... who the F*** will say yes to it..may be its good strategy for the airlines that they could us in the airlines... Do you need cancer ? so called can sir?.. when you see shining white teeth as a result of chick moment with opening lips and shrinking eyes...its the best moment all the time.. Highly energetic..charismatic for those who always wait for this moment.. Some people tend to keep their lips closed and eyes wide open with no tightened lips..what is behind those lips hiding ? a million dollar question.. movement of lips and chick along with coordination of tongue is the best movement of all the time. Keep it going on. It is highly energetic.

keep smiling, keep rocking...JUST DO IT...
get the best you deserve..
GOD BLESS YOU..

Courage and Honor

I was watching The Blind Side other day. Story of big Michael AKA Michael Oher. The great football player. Its a fantastic movie.I love it. Couldn't stop thinking about it. Sandra Bullock was awesome as she is always. Great editing and compilation of movie. Read reviews about it. It is similar to book "The Blind Side". There re lot of things in the movie that keeps you thinking about the story of Michael Oher. The best scene I like was when he writes an essay about Mississippi poem. "Courage is hard thing to figure. You can have courage on dumb idea or mistake. It all depends on who you are here you come from. Courage is tricky. Should you always do what i tell you to do? Sometime you might not know why you are doing something. But honor that’s the real reason why you do something or either you don’t. It’s what you are and may be you want to be. You should hope for courage and try for honor". These were the words. Very influential. Simple word but made great influence. I may have heard it before but this time these words were simply a lot vocative than they look.

Then on next day I saw India- SA cricket match. And I saw the great Sachin making history. I said this is what Michael was saying. People like sachin fight for honor with courage. It was a great example of what he just said. I was so happy looking at him. I just realized the meaning of those words. I thought is it possible for a ordinary person like me to think that way. But I was wrong no one is ordinary, everybody got their virtue. It's a matter of understanding the honor and use your courage to get that honor. Its the way you put things together and run for honor. There are moments in everybody's life when they realize their honor. But very few of them could understand "It's what they have been looking for such a long time in their life". It's what their life is for.

I always believe in optimistic. But not so called Optimistic. I always believe as being positive of whatever deeds I do. I find myself in different mirror each day. Thinking that one day I will see my real image.

India one day win

Feb 21..this day will be remembered as one of most important day in cricket history...battle between India and South Africa...its a great match to watch....I remember the India- South Africa series in 2000-01..it was 5 one day match series...all the matches were very close...the only difference in 2010 series is missing the great players at that time....Cronje...SA captain...one of the most successful captain in world cricket. It was a unfortunate end of his career and life.

Today's match was remembered because team India's performance..India batted reasonably well...with absence of Yuvi, Dravid.. set a target of 298/9...with great performance from sehwag and raina...In response SA team was looking strong at one stage when they had 50/0 in less than 8 overs.. with Gibbs and Dorson playing extremely well..but then it was pravin kumar who broke this partnership..trying to make a hole in SAcan ship...and it worked..after kumar it was Jadeja who continued to push it harder for India.. and got another wicket...but it was kallis who made it all...holding the bat from one end...while the wickets were falling at regular interval...out of all the dismissals I fell sorry about morkel...as he was victim of bad umpiring..it was a tough call..SA was in trouble...70 runs required in 42 balls with 2 wickets in hand...Steyin and parnell continued to play their best..At one stage it was reckoned that Indians will get rid of these 2 and will grab the victory...however it din't happen..those 2 player contributed 60 runs partnership...and made the task easier to 10 runs from 6 balls...

Dhoni gave the ball to kumar...I was expecting that..I saw Dhoni believing these youngsters to in such situation...he was calm and cool...I heard him many times saying that " there is nothing much I can do in such situation except continue playing the regular game"...pravin proved it right...he was tensed...but he had experience of doing these in final over...he did it at several occasions.. he got rid of stein. ..the target was 3 runs in 1 ball..I will say it was unfortunate for South Africans again.. they didn't get that boundary..great efforts by Great Sachin Tendulkar..1 ball 3 runs..pravin throw the ball...hit towards third man...batsman run for 1 then run for second...but.........second run couldn't completed.....India won...Result-- India won by 1 wicket...
great match to watch...I think India has more chances to win this match 15 overs before...unfortunately sehwag din't bowl....and India missed the fifth bowler...SA were able to fetch this match until 1 run..
Great performance by Indian team...Keep Shining..Team India..